Essay About My First Love
I walked away feeling shy and embarrassed at the same time.
Anytime I came in direct contact with him and whenever he looked at me I always felt a soft tenderness in his eyes and the warmth of his heart touched me deep inside.
However, it fills me with happiness to know that you are happy and sharing your love and passion with some other girl who loves you, too.
Even though I was very selfish and jealous when it came to our love, I cannot be selfish with you. Even though all I have left from you is memories, pictures and high standards, I am grateful that I was able to have someone like you in my life, once upon a time.
I am not saying you are perfect; you are certainly flawed.
We are all flawed, but you already knew that and learned how to understand me.
Sometimes, I even wonder if it ever even happened because it ended so abruptly and without closure. The wound is still fresh, even after so many years, and all I feel for you is love.
It was the most ecstatic feeling and I still cannot get over it, as they say when a woman falls in love, she can never fall in love again, although I was a teenager then, but I still have vivid memories of that boy and how I felt for him.For him I was insignificant as I was much smaller than him, therefore he hardly even tried to take any interest in me.Each day when I used to go to the park I used do up my hair differently and wear my best of dresses to look nice lest he spots me there, but everyday he used to be so engrossed in chatting and playing with his friends that he hardly took notice of me.This is why, my first love, it is so difficult not to glimpse back and open the vault of memories, to remember the butterflies in my stomach each time I saw you and feel a little out of breath after each magical kiss.Our whole relationship was magical, come to think of it; it was strong and powerful, but then, it was gone.I have concluded that no matter how much you love someone, it is hard not to hurt him or her. You were my first, and it breaks my heart to know that you are not my last.I still want to thank you for being my first love — my first everything. I found him so handsome, his curly , dark brown hair and large dark brown eyes! Though now when I look back , I laugh it off as mere infatuation, but I don’t know why I felt an instant connection with him, when he looked into my eyes, my heart fluttered and I used to feel so nervous and excited at the same time.You won’t believe it, but I never spoke to him, but still I felt a strong connection to him, he was so handsome and so good looking, that whenever I used to look at him I could not stop myself from staring at him and he hardly bothered to even turn around and look at me.You made life so full of excitement and passion that I felt exhausted but could not stop.I wanted all you could give me; you are the reason I do not want to settle because you raised the bar so high.